For the last four years I did not listen to one word the President of the Unites States said. I did not respect him nor care about any of his opinions. He is repulsive to me and I cannot stand to look at him nor even say his name.
On the eve of the inauguration of President Biden and Vice President Harris, I have some thoughts; a bit of my personal history.
As I became old enough to vote, my parents lacked the wisdom to explain politics to me. The only advice I received from them was “go in the booth and pull the Democrat lever” which I did for several years. I had no idea what I was doing except obeying my parents. (For the record, I never could comprehend American history in school. It bored me and was overwhelming to learn. I was a math and science kid.)
At age 25 I joined a Baptist church and began to learn of things I had never considered. Some of what I learned was a bit contrary to my deep personal beliefs but I was an obedient student of the faith and followed along. As you guessed, I changed my voting preferences to selecting all of the Republican candidates without much consideration. I did that mindlessly for 20 years. (Yes, I am ashamed of that.)
Five years ago I selected the Unaffiliated box on the voter registration in the new city in which I live. I began deconstructing of everything I had ever believed. I stripped all of my childhood learning and my Christian learning down to bare bones and then I listened to what the politicians had to say. I observed their actions. I voted my conscience which was sometimes Republican, sometimes Democrat, but never all one lever.
I am not politically minded whatsoever. I don’t follow it much. But I know when somethings speaks to me and I know how to research things when I really need to know.
Our country is and always has been a mess- don’t give me your facts- I have a strong opinion on this. I’ve learned so much over the last five years about the role politics and government has played in the oppression of black and indigenous people of color that I am sick over it. My heart is BROKEN and devastated that I believed lies told to me by others- all of my life. I cannot identify with a political party nor with a label of religion anymore. No one can define my heart with a label.
I voted for Biden/Harris and I did so because I believe they will bring change to the United States. If not real change, then HOPE of change, as many have already begun to rise up and stand for what is right in the name of equality. If we are truly “one people” then there should be no white supremacy. All people should be treated the same no matter what their skin color. This is sadly not the case in America.
Are they perfect for the job? No. Is anyone? No. Have they said and done things in the past that would indicate they’re falling short of perfection? Of course they have- and so have I and so have you. But I know for sure that I do not want my actions today to be judged by my past.
I am not politically minded, I am people minded. I stand for the people- all the people to be treated the same. It is terribly sad that there are people in our country asking not to be shot the same way the whites are not shot. That’s not right. It’s horrible and yet it is a reality here in a country that identifies itself as “united”- a gross misrepresentation to say the least.
I’m not looking back to shame myself. I am looking back only to grow from where I’ve been and become the change I want to see. Standing in solidarity with all people of all colors.
God Bless America- we need it.