Church. That's what happened. No. Actually it was God at church. Everything I have written here on this blog was brought up in the sermon today to the point where I had a change of heart about things. I am now interested in seeing what these 80+ small groups are because the pastor said there were people in the church who can relate to what I'm going through and who I could connect with in order to receive from God the blessings he has for me instead of being stuck with the "treats" the devil ha...Read Full Post »
Another day, another day of harsh realities - disheartening thoughts and comments by me. This morning while at a restaurant with my friend I noticed a woman eating quite savagely. She wouldn't stop talking with food in her mouth. She shoveled it in and kept right on talking. I mean food was hanging out of her mouth and practically waving at me. I know she didn't have any clue that there was food there or maybe she had some idea but just didn't care. I felt bad for the man sitting with her,...Read Full Post »
It seems my respect level for Christians is hovering around only those who are openly honest with their imperfections. I believe it's transparency that gains my respect. I'm sure this is some type of flaw on my part but I honestly feel like the days of me trusting everyone are over. I don't seem to trust anyone anymore. I truly feel that everyone has things they hide from people simply to protect the identity they allowed to form in other people's minds. I think some even have themselves fo...Read Full Post »
Four years have gone by since I left my old life for this one. Does that even make sense? I only have one life. I suppose what I mean is since I left the life I built including a family, a house, a community, a church, a marriage. It's been four years since I left them.
I am comfortably settled now, in a life that suits me- for this part of the journey. This is absolutely not what I wanted yet as I type this I can hear my old thoughts of wanting this exact thing. I know it has to do with...Read Full Post »
I wonder if I have the courage to speak openly about my thoughts- if I could write what's on my mind without fear or concern for what people may say. It's been years since I've published anything current. This is the first step, right? Putting my fingers on the keyboard and jumping in. Yeah, well, it's a little troubling because my attitude and way of thinking has changed over the last few years. Let me show you.
I went to church this morning, alone, on Mother's Day. I sat in about the...Read Full Post »